The road to grow up...

BrOwSinG…

sha31 — Sat, 21 Nov 2009 06:55:37 +0000

I find myself browsing some Japanese Exchange Teaching sites…and looking for a part time or full time teaching in Japan…
Its rare…But I have a feeling of being an English Teacher since graduating from high school…….
But I never pursue ‘em…

Right now….I feel like want to do it now…
I don’t think there’s a reason NOT to right?….

BUT…WILL I FIT IN?

-sha keera-

Pile up!

sha31 — Thu, 19 Nov 2009 09:41:30 +0000

Work has been piling up for me lately.. I’ve been having MUCH lesser time on the internet for leisure…=.=

Its stressing

-sha keera-

Happy Birthday! I miss you MUMMY!

sha31 — Tue, 17 Nov 2009 15:17:45 +0000

Happy Birthday Mummy!
Its been 6 years since I last celebrated your birthday…
I miss you so much….
I still cry..feeling as if, those 6 years was just yesterday….
But I never cried in front of others…I kept it to myself…

So Kakak mentioned about you to me today saying you came into her dream…
Im wondering why U never came to mine….
I miss you so much…..I…Miss…you…

It made me wonder if what I’ve seen those years was true…
Or am I not yours?…
Cause believe me when I said that the people I’ve met would NEVER believe I am a part of this family…

I don’t know how long I can keep up anymore…
I hide everything with a smile and a laugh…
But im dead inside….

I can’t find any meaning being here….
I feel nothing here…
I don’t know how long Im going to fake everything before I gave up and just go to where you are…

I want nothing to do with here…
I can’t even be myself..
I don’t remember when is the last time I ever just cry in anyone’s shoulder.

Im lonely without you Mummy….
Im miserable without you Mummy…
I Miss you Mummy….
I wanna be with you MummY…

I need you…
I can’t do this…I thought I can…But I can’t….

Almost~

sha31 — Fri, 13 Nov 2009 06:42:54 +0000

So I went and stood up for today’s exam/test for the Front Office subject…
I was a nervous wreck…to the point of almost faint!

Ever since this morning..
I woke up with fear..
Go to college with nervousness..
and arrive with my air left in the car..

I felt like hell..
I was sweating waiting for my turn…

I wore my restaurant outfit for the exam/test..I gotta say, My vest did not fit me nicely on the chest area anymore..I practically have to wear a smaller sized bra and took a deep breath just to buttoned that part…damn it!

I have a feeling my chest is getting bigger…=.=…
Not a highlight of 2009 …

Anyways..My partner is her..

Her name is Jessie Ting..she’s 23 years old…so I called her Jie Jie..hehhe…and her Boyfriend as Ge Ge ….LOL…

I do hope everyone pass this exam/test..

-sha keera

The ‘B’ is back!

sha31 — Wed, 11 Nov 2009 12:37:57 +0000

Im not dead yet people!..Im alive and well!…
I’ve been busy…I only have time for facebook..crappy reason isn’t it?
Im still trying in getting use with laptop rather than PC..

Im that old fashion, the only new technology im one board with is only MUSIC..and pretty sure it ain’t a techy thing…
So whatevs!

Anyways…
My ear is getting better…yet I have to see the doctor still…Im re-scheduling meeting one after another due to hectic college…no one told me that I’ll be facing this thing when I reach to a senior…=.=..

So I try my best to get my singing in gear….even if its running under
20mph!

That’s my newest cover….I totally love Lady Gaga!..her confidence..her singing…her dancing…..did I tell you that the bitch’s craziness is LOVED by me??…

So yeah xD….

Enjoy it….Its not perfect..If it does..you’d seen me on TV already!

=sha keera

Quiet..my skin type..beauty workshop..review

sha31 — Fri, 06 Nov 2009 13:23:18 +0000

Im adding review on my categories..mind you, Im not a professional reviewer..This is based on my experience only!

I’ve been quiet lately…
I think im loosing interest in blogging..
not sure why..It might be a phase …hoping it would be..
So last tuesday ..Our semester 6 all went to the body shop beauty workshop…

Im not sure why..but I just wasn’t feeling that confidence or fun that I always had…
So I act the way I always do….Awkward..

I don’t have a fair skin…nor a dark skin..
but the consultant said my skin is dark..
and to top it all off .. i think the helpers secretly hates me..
I feel like I’ve known one of the helpers before…
and she had given me nothing but…uh….awkward moment I think

I think my skin got darker because of my oily face..
But for sure..I dont have that…what they called “Dark Tanned Skin”…

And here’s a proof of my skin
No make up..No nothing…

and this is how they “tanned” me out..
Im the one in the polka dots green..

I was NOT happy with the make up outcome..
my first experience in a beauty workshop makes me DON’T want to have a 2nd experience…

=.=…

I have feeling…not a lot of us is pretty much satisfied wasting RM30 to a typical beauty workshop..
I know I don’t…

Maybe your experience is different than mine…Good Luck

=sha keera

Doctor’s appointment

sha31 — Wed, 28 Oct 2009 15:05:00 +0000

So today I took a leave from the college and went to my 2nd doctor’s appointments…
I was ready for a good news as I’ve been feeling nothing but good this whole two weeks..

Unfortunately, lady luck wasn’t on my side today
and I heard probably the worst news up to date regarding my condition…

My ear problem was a fungus infection..god knows where I got it from…*shrugs*
When I do the 2nd check up..the infection is still there but its getting better [as I assumed..]

Another problem occurred…
The swelling near the ear which something that I had been facing since I was a kid …Something that I thought normal swells for more than a decade now..had gone worst…The swell got bigger…And the doctor is worried that it might be dangerous for my health..

So on November…I’ll be having some cells taken out from that area for their further studies and analysis on it…
and they’ll see whether if I have to go under the knife or not..

Seriously…I was holding my tears when he said that…
I remembered how shaky I was…The hospital was so cold yet I’m sweating…

I really do hope that this swell is nothing more but a normal swell…
The thought of it being more than that….scares me…

I’ve got the next 2 months FULL with doctor appointments
…
So ….Maybe its time for me to turn to god?

ps: Atleast my hearing is somewhat a LITTLE better now…

=sha keera

Stress

sha31 — Wed, 21 Oct 2009 14:40:18 +0000

First , human resource test…
Second , Japanese test…

and my brain was dead beat!..
Im having the headache of my life now….

sheesh…

So on Monday, we had a big gap before 2nd class starts..
Kath, Pui Vun, Fiona, Dyana and Me decided to go to Star Hotel and just had fun xD..

This is some of the pics from my cellphone to show…

There’s more…but im lazy to upload..xD

Be my friend on Facebook.com/shakeera31

and for sure you can view all ^_^

=shakeera

Old School…

sha31 — Sun, 11 Oct 2009 14:06:19 +0000

I graduated from high school at the end of 2006…
I was 16 and everyone else was 1 year older than me…

Has been almost 3 years since then…
Everyone had lost connection from one another since that day…
I decided to open a facebook account in mid 2008
More people from college added me..
New friends added me..

and along the way Old friends added me…
Can’t believe how far we’ve gone through from being just a couple of brats in school to workers…students and even proud parents…

Can’t believe we all had change from this….

To coming of age adults now….

Years had done nothing but great things to all of us..

I hope one day we gather up together and be like old days again ^_^

-Sha Keera

“Im there”

sha31 — Thu, 08 Oct 2009 14:58:44 +0000

I’ve come to one point that I must face my fear..
and one of them is driving..

I don’t trust my driving skills..as to others also…
I find it really hard to put my life on anyone’s hands and their lives on mine…

So yesterday I went to my first JPJ driving examination test..
With little practices and a NON-SMOOTHED driving skills…
with a little compliment from god of rain..

I took whatever breath I got and inhale it…
My turn….and to my luck..My tester is a woman…and we all know how women acts especially when they’re the boss…

So I started my engine…It died…
My driving sucked bad that the same word kept on running in my head….”fail…fail…fail”…
and after I get back into the test center…she asked me to go one final round and my car died….=.=

I wasn’t in tears…but I was nervous as hell..
and I knew that moment….I had failed the driving test…

So I drove back to the starting point..
and couldn’t bear to look her marking my papers….

I knew that point..it was OVER!

So I got the paper…
I shake her hand and thanked her…and apologize for all the mistakes I did and thanked her again…with a smile never left my face….from the start I got into the car until I hopped out…In the middle of the rain..I looked at my papers…hoping the rain to hide any tears might fall…

I search the answer until at the bottom of the paper…one word was written…

“PASS”…

There’s one person I met there and she was waiting for the exam also..
She looked at me and gave me a smile..
and I looked at her smiling with a thumbs up…
she congratulate me with a whisper…and I thanked her..

Before I gave out the paper to the center , I wished her all the luck today as well as to everyone…^_^
I walked out and going towards my tutor’s car and started to get mischievous /sneaky….So I put a sad face on..and the tutor asked “U didn’t make it?”..I sighed as hard as I could . He gave me a sad look and said “We can arrange for next week exam if you like…We can still do last minute refreshing up…” So I answered him ” I don’t think next week I’ll be able to do it again”..and he gave me a puzzling look of why…and I continued..”Coz next week, I’ll be taking my 2 years ‘P’ license ” and he was suprised..and happy..xD

I did the same thing to my friends and family xD..

Everyone bought it..xD

LOL…They’re so gullible..
I love them all ^_^…

Although Im still thinking WHY ON EARTH the tester passed me after showing a lot of dangerous acts on road…
and after all the nag and nags she gave me while in the car…..=.=…and made me think I failed =.=”’

I should thank her again next time I see her xD….
The important thing is I passed and is able to drive now…
can’t wait to start driving for real ^_^

-Sha Keera